Regret

As if life isn't hard enough we waste a lot of time on foolish things such as regret. I know I do. I know I do and yet I still do it. I'm not sure if it's sin or frustration or just getting lost in my own head but it is a hard one to overcome.
I think back on things all the time. Not as a matter of intent or want but rather my mind, running from place to place as it does, takes me down roads I do not intend and would frankly rather not. I think back to so many mistakes or choices made or even choices not made and I become negatively lost in regret. So many mistakes that it is a wonder to my mind how I not only got through any of it but how I even get up and keep moving in the mornings. Some days I simply do not wish to and lay in bed until I have absolutely no choice but to get moving or risk staying in bed the whole day and wasting away. Yes, that thought has entered my brain. Many times.
Shame and embarrassment take over in those situations. Is it right? I doubt it. It's not something I want to be dwelling on obviously but sometimes it just pops right in there.
I don't know about anyone else but I figure I'm not alone in dealing with regret. However, as a sinner, father, son and husband my plate of regret is overflowing. Change is always a necessity and forward progress a must but the plate is already full and no matter my best intentions I will undoubtedly add more too it.
The immensity of my regret is great and what I regret most sometimes changes but with circumstances as they are now my regrets as a father are currently out in front of me. Front. And. Center. As always I will step forward and continue my life but probably a bit more sluggish today than others.

Life Part #SomethingOrOther

I have blog points on Marriage, Grief, Stress and Driving that I've been putting off. Life keeps getting in the way. My personal life as well as my work life have been hectic and crazy. I feel like there is no keeping up with normal life let alone taking time to post here. This blog has been a thought dropping point for me. My mind gets so busy with thoughts and ideas that I can't seem to stop running, in my head anyway, and these things occupy my sleep as well as waking time and adds to my normal exhaustion. This blog has really helped me to unload some of them.
Maybe this long weekend I'll be able to finally unload some of these and stop them from bouncing around in my mind with a, seemingly, will of their own.
Anyway, here's hoping.