October 29

Well. 32. It's finally here. I think I actually feel like this is a bigger number to overcome than 30 was. Oh well. It's life. We get older.
Well Sarah and her parents and Saralynn are in Nashville today. Kind of sucks not to have the person who is closest to you not there for your birthday, but I guess in the scheme of things it's really not that big of a deal. I miss her a lot and can't wait till she gets back. Just hope I can get off my butt and get some stuff done around here today. The house is a real mess. And the yard is covered in leaves. I have been wanting to get the freaking leaves done, but it hasn't hardly stopped raining for 2 weeks!
Not much else to talk about. I'm tired of being so poor. It makes all of life so much more difficult to wonder if we are even going to have enough to pay for food and bills. Life sucks.

Stephen

October 17

Today is my son Ethans 6th birthday. I still remember holding him in the operating room and them handing him to me with a bottle and him sucking on it right away! This was extra special because Philip (8) did not eat for so long after birth, we were getting really concerned.
So anyway, Happy Birthday Ethan

Dad/Stephen

Friday

With the cold weather and snow threatening, its got me concerned again about wether or not our roof can hold up another winter. It is starting to cave in on the north side a little bit and if we get snow, it may not hold. We have no money and can't get a loan. I try not to worry but it is so hard. I don't know what we are going to do.

Stephen

Wednesday

Well, today I learned that even when we mean things for evil (or our own selfish desires) God can still use it for a good thing.
Not much going on, at home. Kids took forever with school work today.
Work however is different. There is going to be a layoff tommorrow. I will lose 3 to the layoff and 9 to replace others that have been layed off in other departments! Oh yes. tommorrow is going to be a LOVELY day.

Stephen

Monday

Well, the start of another week. Continuing my reading of 2 Samuel. I find it interesting everytime I read this book that God calls David a man after His own heart. Today David kills Thousands of his enemies and subjugates entire kingdoms. Yet all these ridiculous people in our society say it is wrong to go to war. God Himself makes it very clear that this is a nescesary thing. Not in every case but I think that in order to make people safe it is perfectly ok. People may not agree with our going to war in Iraq but standing up for the helpless is always a good thing and if our country has degenerated to the place where it is evil to stand up for the helpless and poor, then we really are screwed.

stephen

Monday

Thursday

2 Samuel 6 and 7.
David made it clear that the things we consider foolish are often the very thing God wants us to do. He danced with all his might before the Lord and it was right before God. Also God promised to make Davids "house" stand for all time.

Stephen

Wednesday

Today in 2 Samuel 5 and 6 we see yet one more time David says that it is not okay to kill the Lords annointed. He gets a little repetitive. You would think that after he had the last group killed for this that they would have got the point.
Anyway, work is slow and it kind of sucks, but is kind of nice to not have a lot going on all the time!

Stephen

tuesday

Today I read 2 Samuel 3 and 4. It was not overly interesting as some of the previous chapters. I noticed that even some who say they are following God's plan are not really following. And even when they do truly come to Him there is still not guaranteed peace. Abner was killed by Joab. There is probably more to learn but I'm just not paying attention very well today.

Stephen

October

Well october is here. Where did the time go? It is very hard for me sitting here to think that we only have 3 months left till the end of the year. It has been a rough year and yet here we still stand somehow. Another week begins and I still can't believe the weekend is over. I think I would love nothing more than to stay home for a month! This may seem silly or immature but it would be so restful to just take it easy and not have to worry about so many things all the time.

Also it would give me time to get back to work on my book. I haven't really done much with it lately. It is something I have wanted to do for a long time but I find it hard to justify the time it takes to work on it. I often feel soooo squeezed for time that I end up trying to do nothing at all. I know this is not a good thing either. Well got to go.

Stephen